The Truth.

This is the truth.  These are my beliefs.

I need passion in my life. I want to live and feel.

I believe in existing in a world where there are cosmic things at play. A world that has deeper meaning and purpose.  

i want to breathe in the air around me and know that I need it. 

Instead of just breathing, I want my blood to circulate and flow to make me feel alive with even the most mundane of tasks. 

i don't subscribe to everyday rules and monotonous things. I want to wake up tomorrow and do something that was different from today. I want to BE different. This is not always possible.

There is a huge part of me that feels connected to the Earth, but another part of me that knows I am not as connected as others, and never will be. I try to pretend that I am one of those people, but deep down, I don't think I will ever be someone who lies in the grass shoeless and naked. One of those people that is free enough to strip down and feel the cool air rush over my body and be one with nature, like the animals we are. I am too dependent on comfort within the world I've built for myself, not that unknown wilderness. People who are free in that way have always intrigued me. I'm drawn to that different level of comfort. 

I've just come to the realization that I've probably been employed at so many places in my life because I've always been looking for my purpose. In the end, what matters most? 

I do not believe in one supreme being, one creator. I believe in energy and the magnitude of emotion.  

I believe music helps to bring you to a better place. Or to save you from your own thoughts and enter into another's. 

i believe in dancing until you sweat. And sweating until you're out of breath. I believe that feeling rhythm is as important as creating it. I believe in connecting with others around you while moving to the same sounds. 

I want my children to know my life's work.  

There is no rule book to life, because everyone's reality is different. Everyone needs different things for different reasons and not all rules apply to everyone. 

If I were to die today, I feel like I have not accomplished what I've needed to. I'm also not quite sure I will ever feel like I have.

i wish to leave behind a legacy. I want future generations to remember me by the things I've done.  

Ive always been told I am moody and emotional. It's reactionary, yes, but I also call it being alive and not on a default setting. I want to feel like I've assessed a situation and reacted the way I felt in that moment. I know I'm not always right but at least I thought about it and did or said something. I can't be numb to things, to pretend like it doesn't bother me. 

I am on a bus and a girl has a t-shirt that says, "Find what you love and let it kill you." Yes. 

 There is a fine line between confidence and arrogance. I know this because I've been accused of being arrogant while I was trying  to simply be a confident young man. I am [mostly] sure of my self-worth and I am sure I have a lot to contribute to this life and this world. I have recently come to terms with the fact that I will always be misconstrued as arrogant if I maintain the same level of confidence that I have been. I am still searching for the answer to whether or not I should deal with the misinterpretation of who I am or change for the betterment of me, which may change how others see me.

The answer is always change.